"they'll speak of me, oh in whispered tones, and say my name like it shakes their bones"
welcome to my table, bring your hunger
"This here is not makeup, it’s a porcelain tomb; and this here is not singing, I’m just screaming in tune!"
about me
me and my basic identity i think? identity is confusing. this is prone to change if i have a crisis
names i use:
➳ athena
➳ riven
➳ hayden
➳ etheric
➳ merlin
➳ nahtjea
my sexuality:
➳ asexual spectrum
➳ aromantic spectrum
➳ queer
➳ polyam
age:
➳ '99 liner
➳ 21+
➳ i avoid interacting with those younger than 16 as much as possible
my gender:
i have a very complicated relationship with the idea of gender, so here's the ones that fit me the best? in order of the way i like them to be used for me.
➳ aestheticflux (xenogenders)
➳ gendervoid (of the void)
➳ agenderi have other identities but its a fluctuating statepronouns that are always consistent:
void/voi/voidself
nightmare/nightmares/nightmareself
they/them/theirs (used irl mostly)
↓ others in pronoun page below ↓
important things to know!:
➳ i am afab with no transitioning so i do sound fem.
➳ i present very femme but i am not a woman, do not use femme terms with me without permission.
➳ i prefer masc terms if you must
➳ ↓ check the links below for more info! ↓
"stardust in you and in me; fuse us into unity. primeval we're coupled; born from the universe. farewell the void is calling."
fun facts
other facts:
➳ infj➳ scorpio➳ witch➳ neurodivergent➳ chaotic neutral➳ definitely a parent friend➳ probably a tsundere, friend's words, not mine➳ the epitome of 2 am thoughts
iconic statements from me:
➳ i'm a quirky, queer, triple a battery
➳ i'm a lonely triple a battery in a vc
➳ you're pop backwards
➳ don't worry about it :)
➳ i stared into the face of god and wished it was you
➳ im not insane, i got diagnosed. im not crazy, im just mentally ill.
➳ stop talking about yourself coming out of the womb, we're talking about some tea!
➳ imagine you tried to kill your enemy but god said no
➳ i have to believe in hell to go to it. :)
my stims:ꕥ auditory: making mep/meh noises, making various bap-sounding noises, random humming, random song lyrics (particularly when i'm listening to music), making screeching noises, clicking noises, mouth popping, tongue clicking, some sort of catlike chirping noise?ꕥ visual: blinking rapidly, staring at any random object for a period of time (especially if it moves)ꕥ motor: hand-flapping, rolling wrists and ankles, shaking leg or feet rapidly, biting (particularly necklaces or fingernails), fidgeting with phone (or anything i can get my hands on, usually it's my phone), swaying and dancing around, body spasms, head twitches
witchy me:╰┈➤ i'm an eclectic witch, i wouldn't really classify myself as a specific type of witch. but i do use crystal magic, practice divination, and i plan to start working with herbs and candle magick more, as well as some other paths. i tend to have visions in my dreams and during my mediations. i would like to eventually start scrying.╰┈➤ i do some deity work! i have multiple deities, all goddesses╰┈➤ to learn more check here
"And I am the nightmare, these monsters I hold, I'm bringing them home. And I am the shiver in your lungs when you're out in the cold."
my main fandoms
in no particular order, as my fixations on them shift:
≪•◦ - bts - ◦•≫
≪•◦ - stray kids- ◦•≫
≪•◦ - txt- ◦•≫
≪•◦ - kpop in general - ◦•≫
≪•◦ - dcmk - ◦•≫
≪•◦ - star wars - ◦•≫
≪•◦ - bbc merlin - ◦•≫
≪•◦ - pokemon - ◦•≫
≪•◦ - persona 5 - ◦•≫
≪•◦ - danmei - ◦•≫
≪•◦ - legend of zelda - ◦•≫
≪•◦ - the witcher - ◦•≫
≪•◦ - hades game series - ◦•≫
≪•◦ - epic the musical - ◦•≫
"My hands are at your throat and I think I hate you. We made the same mistakes,
Mistakes like friends do.
My hands are at your throat and I think I hate you. We made the same mistakes, Until the day I die; I'd spill my heart for you."
to the cool people in my life
pari, nicky, glades, red, raven, alexis, wick, luvvy, mars, dragon, echo, just, and all of space fam and all of the hub groupies
i love you all, thank you for being in my life, you're so cool and wonderful /pos /p(the list was getting long sorry i didn't list everyone)
DNIUC/DNIUVC circles:
⟿ space fam
⟿ gremlin group chat
⟿ the hub groupies
⟿ people listed in the dniu
other
"Love, run! It's nought that rum won't solve though some would harm you, none - not one - no none would raise to you a hand nor thumb; not while by you I stand and hum!"
likes:
✎ music
✎ writing
✎ art
✎ soft noises
✎ gaming
✎ space
✎ history
fave musical artists (i listen to a lot of music so this is just my fave listens):
volυмe : ▁▂▃▄▅▆▇▉∞ ↺ bts
∞ ↺ stray kids
∞ ↺ txt
∞ ↺ the amazing devil
∞ ↺ starset
∞ ↺ natewantstobattle
∞ ↺ derivakat
∞ ↺ purity ring
∞ ↺ banks
∞ ↺ scene queen
∞ ↺ banshee
∞ ↺ epic the musical
dislikes:
-‘๑’- country music (squick)
-‘๑’- extremely loud noises
-‘๑’- extreme gore
-‘๑’- guilt trippers
-‘๑’- antis (antifans of any fandom or interest). please get a life. like genuinely. this goes for people in shared fandoms who hate other parts of the fandom, ships, artists, etc.
-‘๑’- people who refuse to even attempt to use tone indicators
aggressively hard no:
: ̀➛ literally if you hate any part of the lgbt community; please fucking leave because all parts of it are fucking valid.
: ̀➛ ableism
: ̀➛ racism
: ̀➛ sexism
: ̀➛ if you instantly believe any serious accusation towards anyone without waiting for more information or proof; fuck off. use your fucking brain. as a victim myself; i'm tired of being used as someone's tool and weapon to start shit. the internet is not a court of law. the courts suck but how y'all act isn't fucking better.
: ̀➛ creepy shit like pedos, zoophiles, necrophiles, incest
: ̀➛ i don't tolerate bigotry. at all. literally fuck off if you think people can't live their own lives.
: ̀➛ if you make fun of anything related to gender identity, then dni and go educate yourself. this includes; neopronouns, xenogenders, and other such things. we're all fucking valid. just because you don't get it or haven't heard of it, doesn't mean it doesn't exist.
: ̀➛ also, with the antis thing, if you dont like anything of my interests, then go away. dni goes both ways. the block button is a great tool, use it. i use it lots, i will block you if you're anywhere in my dni or i'm in yours. or i'll just block you because you really don't use a brain cell. i block freely.
: ̀➛ solo twitter/tiktok users actually fuck off. you guys believe anything you read and don't think critically. im tired of you all starting shit. you're not the fucking courts. you are not trained fucking lawyers. you don't know shit.
: ̀➛ 4chan, leaktwt, and other such site/groups: i hope you rot. fuck off.
"Loving myself might be harder than loving someone else, let's admit it.
the standards you made are more strict for yourself.
the thick tree rings in your life
it's part of you, it's you.
Now let's forgive ourselves, Our lives are long, trust yourself when in a maze. When winter passes, spring always comes."